South Jakarta, 1 February 2010
It Is Us Who Designed Our Life
It is in the moment of decision your destiny is made.
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I’ve been about 10 months working here. Since the first time I joined the earlier 6 months OJT, I’d calculated, I’d planed, and I’d visioned what I will do in about 5 years later. All have been in a tidy-written-plan. When suddenly things changed, which changed my whole plan, I was very disappointed and face an unlikeable thing.
In this shocking condition, I tried to think how’s the company’s system runs actually. I tried to ask and discuss with Mr. A, he is the person who interviewed me in the recruitment process. And he gave me an explanation and motivating words but not satisfied me yet. He said that what is important from a fresh graduate is their mindset. So we just need to learn the work in whichever division the company put us. But it is like a give up words for me. Nevertheless, I still try to follow his recommendation.
Until about 5 months later. I reconsider that this is not what I want. This mind is also strengthened by my environment. I’ve met some people who motivate me to move and taught me the how. These people are at the managerial-level people. They shared much. My own willingness to move is like an amplitude chart. It’s up and down. Till one of these people asked my truth willingness to move to his division. And then I decide, yes I will.
Start from here, things happened like a tornado, brainstorming, brain-splitting. I then met people, then another people, and then another people who share their opinions and gave me much advises and are willing to help. And finally the only inhibitor left is my own boss. He’s the one who said no. In this condition, I tried to make a positive thinking, and I prayed to Him to give me the best solution.
Few days ago, the boss talked to me. It seems he now changed his mind, he talked about several efforts he has made. He had made a discussion with his ‘mates’, the decision makers. He might can read my mind, that if they don’t move me to the place I want, it won’t be optimum for me to contribute to the company, and the worst case is I will out and find another place.
Now, it’s all in progress, i feel surrender for what ever the decision is. InsyaAllah It’s gonna be the best for me. I’m praying while waiting. Praying for the best decision based on His knowledge.
Allahumma innii astakhiiruka bi ‘ilmika, wa astaqdiruka bi qudratika, wa as’aluka min fadlikal azhiim.
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When you want s.t, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.